She loves writing. Every year, she makes sure that she has a journal to write everything that had happened to her every single day, or everything that she’s been thinking.
When she hit the bottom, she stopped writing. She has forgotten about her beloved journal. She instead started watching a lot of movies and comedy series, reading all the books she could find, and sleeping. She goes out and does everything she can do except writing.
She can’t force herself to write. She is too afraid that once she writes everything, it will crash her. She won’t only be able to hear the things inside her head, but will actually see it. She just want these depressing thoughts and feelings inside her, rather than putting it somewhere the world can see.