Sometimes, having your dreams come true can feel like a nightmare, because getting what you want always comes with strings attached. – Gossip Girl 4
They say that you get to be scared when you’re about to reach your dreams. But what they did not tell is that this scared feeling is so overwhelming, I just want to go home, lay down on my bed, watch a couple of scenes from my favorite happy movie, then watch a drama movie so I can cry then sleep in a fetal position.
That’s waaay overwhelming.
So, my daily adventures are all about applying. Being an unemployed is not new to me, I even consider it my comfort zone already.
When odds are in my favor, when a company (finally!) is accepting me, I got so scared.
This is like the first time. Things are going too fast, I’m hesitant to say no so I just go with the rapid flow.
And what did that bring me?
They say that when you get up high so fast, you fall so strong, it would break all your bones.
I don’t want my bones (and heart) to be broken again. I’m still mending and I swear to myself that I would never do anything crazy.
The only place I can be impulsive is in bookstores. When I see a pretty cover, even if I don’t know the story, I’d buy it. If the title seems interesting, I’d buy it. But of course, that is if I have money.
I feel like I’m more at lost now. I said to myself that I have to have a job before the month ends. Today is January 31 and something came up. So, is this the much awaited job?
But some things that I expected seems like to be staying in my mind. Sucks when your imagination is so colorful you imagine everything and when reality came, you’re always disappointed.
– Ren, January 31, 2013 3:55pm